SORRY seems to be the hardest word...

you say that its friendship,but when people are around you shun me away...what the fuck do you take me for???
THINK LONG AND HARD...YOU TOLD ME EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED AND PROMISED TO KEEP IT TO YOURSELF THAT I KNOw, BUT YOU ARE STILL A FUCKING BETRAYER TO ME...
I HAVE A LETTER WHICH YOU WROTE AND GUESS WHAT I HAVE FOUND OUT EVERYTHING...

Hey guys sorry for the sudden blow out!the above message is to the person who is now seeming to act like an inocent person...you wanna be with me and betray me...nevermind i wont show any anger towards you cause i just knew you...
i wanna apologise for not updating my blog lately...just kinda mood out on things that havebeen happening around me lately...
N-Levels coming up soon,Still have Showcase 2009 to plan with the Ex-Co..
Friendship problems,Exam Problems and most importantly i have no fucking idea on what is gonna be tested...school has just begun and i have not been concentrating enough...i try but i dont know why i just cant...I love school and studying but after the holidays i cant seem to get back on the track...i keep talking or sleeping...I am So damn irresponsible!!!

Friends are all Seperating...dont know for what reason i dont know...People are trying to settle it but its not working,cause people dont wanna forget the past and keep talking behind everyones back...wanna say somehting to that person say it to their face,dont hide behind the Back and STAB STAB STAB!!!People who used to talk damn close before the holidays are all Away now...Kinda like something over the span of one month and all of them hate each others guts now????I know that this is not what you guys came to my blog to read but i am SORRY!i have these things in my head for quite some time now and i have to say them some how...i will get back to posting as usual when i feel like a winner and not a complete loser!!!Fuck life is what i feel right now!!
I wanna Change...I have To concentrate on my studies...i shall study even if no one wants to,i will learn even if i cant and i will ACHIEVE MY GOAL IN LIFE!!!
Not YOU nor ANYONE can stop me...

Thanks to:
Patricia
Carine
Aldric

Wen Bin:really touched by this guy someone i know for less then a month cares for me even more then my friend who i know for like for 4 years...i am really touched thank you..Mr Drama I will never forget you:)

Jun Jing
Hui Min
For the encourage ment that you guys are giving me...really appreciate it...

Oh and BTW wanna thank Vivek for lending me the Slumdog Millionair book...i cant stop reading it...Thank you

Will be back soon...In FULL FORCE!

The Smile you see is the COVER of all the problems just like a blender which covers the contents,if you open it while it is ON,it will burst out and create a mess...
Smiling sometime will make someone happier then they already are...
Everything should be fine soon...I Hope!

DEPRESSED!!!! i wanna know the true meaning of "Friends"???

kinda DEPRESSED RIGHT NOW!
I KINDA really need answers right now...let me tell you the situation and you tell me what to do...please help me i need help...

SITUATION:
i have a "best friend" who i thought so and that person always tells me stuff and always sort of goes out with me...now it has come to a point where i realise that the person is talking bad about me behind my back to other people...and heres the best part that person talks bad to me about the person who informed me too...so in short that person is talking behind both our backs and is pretending to be INNOCENT!!!
this is in short called HYPOCRITE!!!
I am so damn tempted to scold that person but nvm i shall not...i really went out to do the best for that person i helped that person alot...only patricia,carine and shahul know how i feel and what all i did for that person...i am really really depressed...i fee like damn cheated of my friendship...i REALLY dont know the true meaning of friendship and i am depressed all mt efforts for the person is WASTED!!!

To that person:

from today onwards i am gonna change i will not irritate anyone anymore...i am just gonna mind my freeking buisness...any problem and from today onwards i will not be involved...your words made me feel like shit you know...i thought you only said those stuff about other people but i didnt know you said those stuff about me too...i am really cheated...i thought of you as my best friend...seriously lah even the person who i hated once i think ah cares for me more then you do...The person ah i tell you is giving me encouragement now...i admit i and patricia USED to hate each other before but now i tell you we are best friends so what ever you wanna do i dont give a shit...my friends are who i chose not you chose for me...really lah i will not now nor ever ever lasten to you again...you know who else you talked about...i might be just blogging about it but someone else might just tell you off in your face...so STOP your craps...think what you are doing before you say it to someone...i now know what you always felt about me...thanks to you _________...i will from today onwards never betray you ever again...we are gonna be closer then ever just to prove it to that person that we will not listen to that person...we will from today onwards be true to each other and respect each other as human beings... Thank you ________ for allowing us to talk it out and find out the truth!Thank you patricia and carine for encouraging me all this while...

25 June 2009-10.24pm:)
vinods NEW BEGINING:)

FRIENDS...I REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT YOU THINK THE MEANING IS???

Watched transformers with patricia,yong siang and shahul./...was damn freeking nice lah the movie...i tell you i will give it a 8/10 for a rating if i had to...it really was intense to watch and also damn funny at times...let me tell u guys a secret that only i have kept known...this is my first movie that i watched on the opening day...so sad but now thats one thing off my things to do list...

one other thing i learnt that now my enemy list has changed from 10people to now there is only ONE person on it...you know who you are freeking idiot...i dont wanna say who is the person but when u read this u should know...

Friends who believe that they are true will always know what to do at the right time and place...me nor those who are affected will never forgive you ever...you wait and see one day retribution will fall on you...and then you will know...knn...you watch out...but nvm thanks to carine and shahul for consoling me about this you guys are the best...especially i wan to thanks shahul for comming out with me at the last notice today(25 june 2009) i will never forget you bro!!!thank you:) for comming out and studying with me even though we didnt study at all...we were crapping away..hahahaha:)

anyways will end here...bye:)

Camp Synergy 2009!!!

(My Scissors,Paper,Stone buddy!)
(4/8'Oh nine With Mr shafik)

(All The Student Leaders For Lower Sec Camp Synergy!)

(Roy,Patricia And Me)

(Sunitha,Vinod And Aaron)

(2/6 Oh'Nine)

(Me And Patricia)

(Our Facilitators)

(Naturally 8)

hey guys came back from camp synergy lower sec camp just on sunday....And let me tell you that the camp was even more nicer then the upper sec camp...i had even more fun in the lower sec one....My Group was the BEST in the world...they had Enthusiasum and charisma....

Really man 2/6 oh nine if you ever see this post...let me just say...

To 2/6 oh nine:

I really enjoyed being your group student leader....i think i speak for kia cher as well...we both really had loads of fun,you guys were united as one and were always listening to us...we had no problems at all with you guys...hahahah:)i wouldnt mind if i had to be ur SL again....vinod + Kia cher Loves H1N1!!!!!

Thank you for the wondersul memories...this is our last camp and you guys made it extra Special!!!Thank you:)

Ending here,Vinod:)

Oh btw go to youtube and type in the search box

:Camp Synergy @ Anderson

and view my mealworm eating video:)hahahahaha:)thanks:)

Bye!!!

CAMP SYNERGY 2009 HERE I COME!!!

-MUST REMEMBER TO TAG ME WHEN I AM GONE!!HAHAHAHAHAH....GONNA MISS THESE THINGS/PEOPLE:

-Mother

-FACEBOOK!!!!

-Blogspot

-MSN!!!

-My COMFORTABLE BED

-Home Cooked FOOD!!!

-AND EVERYTHING ELSE!!!

But definatly i am gonna have fun!!!

CAMP SYNERGY 2009-6 DAY CAMP!!!

BLOG AFTER CAMP!!!

Signing out,VINOD!!!

SENTOSA MADDNESS!!!

(Above-HarbourFront MRT Station)

(Above-On the Tram)

We swam in the sea and people my volleyball kept going into deep waters and the only one who could save it was CARINE!!!Me and Vivek tried our best but failed like many many many times...But nevermind!we had FUN!!!after that we played water polo or was it water captians ball??whatever it was we were playing it and having FUN like HELL!!!!wooo!!!!!must go back soon...miss volleyball matches there...hai ya nevermind it was in the past!

Was like damn fun,aldric sorry man,i remember telling you that we were at Tanjong Beach...Anyways...today was like damn boring...me carine and shahul were taking on the phone planning what to bring for the:

7 DAY CAMP WE WILL BE ON!!!!

SEE ya!

Maybe blog after the camp!

bye,expect more pictures!

SENTOSA!!!

SENTOSA!!!

Venue: Harbourfront MRT Station

Date: 13 June 2009

Time: 2pm

Things to Bring:

*Clothings EXTRA!

*MONEY-Enough Amount Will Do!

-$3 entrance Fee

*If you have other things that you think we might need pls bring also!

*

I will bring the volleyball...

PLEASE DONT BE LATE!

THANK YOU!SE YA

this message is for

*aldric

*carine

*kia cher

*vivek

*shahul

*evan

*shirlene

*ridhuan

SEE ya!

GYM,GYM,GYM!!!

woke up then used the computer at 8am till 9.30am...then took my shower and headed to school...thought that people will be in school because someone messaged me that they will be playing bball by 10am or EARLIER!!!

went there by 10.30am and no one was there so emoed till like 11.30am when cher beng and shahul arrived..but i decided to leave at 12.00pm because i wanted to go to the gym with vivek:)met him at 12.34pm(just 4minutes late and he went beserk)

walked to the gym and worked out till like 3pm,freshened up and went to Jurong point/causway point...either one lah i forgot..walked around(went to cold storage and vivek bought this alcoholic drink and started going nuts)...laughed and joked our way to KFC where we ate our LUNCH+DINNER:)

Thank god i ate with him cause when i went back to school everyone told me that they didnt feel like eating at Banquet...which was aldy planned...never mind...now i know the feeling of being PS'ed!!!

played ball then headed home:)

Damn Fun going to gym with the monkey....must go soon again...hahahahah....Fixing date soon:)

PIZZA HUT DAY!!!!!

hey guys!

wanted to go out today but then in the end NO ONE turned up only Ridhuan and his girlfriend.we decided to go to pizza hut to eat dinner was like only 5pm so we decided to take our time and go slow..we reached there and we ordered...some one for one meal...

(this picture is taken from the websit...copyright goes to pizza hut)
couldnt finish it...so ended up packing it for ridhuan...the bill came close to like $50 bucks... paid it and left to the MRT...went to send his GF off and now at his house blogging...talking loads of stuff...

those who wanna go out next time i will try to plan it on a weekday so that everyone can come,ok guys this wednesday lets go to East Coast!!!!

Details

Venue: Meet at Amk MRT

Time:Meet at 9am,then spend the whole day there or so

Date:10 June 2009

People Invited :EVERYONE!!!(those who wanna go)

*message Me(98998163) or Ridhuan(81597901)...

or you can tell me tomorrow at cheng san CC while Playing BasketBall...Thank You:)

See Ya!!!

Hyper Or Need To Visit Mental Hospital:)

Today..

left my house at 8am...supposed to meet shahul in school but i know he will be late and he was late....so i decided to take my time...i called him on the way but he still didnt answer till 8.30am...he mentioned hat shirlene was waiting for him at amk mrt then i messaged shirlene and she told me to meet her at 8.45am...met up with her and we started crapping and crapping she was telling me about what she did at 12midnight yesterday when she couldnt sleep...she started editing her phone contacts..by putting chinese names for 4/8 peolpe even i have one...mine sound ike this..."hei vi-nod" means black vinod...nevermind i admit i am dark tonned in my skin colour...then came along many other people like naughty...she wanted to go to mac to buy breakfast but then she miss read the message and thought that i wanted to follow her to mac...hahahah...never mind...

we walked to school and once we reached school go computer lab then facebook,friendster,blog surfing...then eugene and levin suggested to play CS ....so fine me,shir,carine,ym,ying chuan,levin,mun teng,eugene,sean and shahul were playing in a server and i everytim kena head shot even before i get to walk...loser right and blame it all on carine...

Then we had to leave cause mrs kumar got pissed off saying that we were not doing our work but playing...hahahaha....so fine lor we all left...went to eat then played bball...carine LOST a BET but didnt keep her word...never mind naughty,funny forgives you...ahahhaha

after that went to walk to amk hub to go home...carine told me a secret that she heard and i am planning somthing carine dont worry...come back home...then bath,log on to blog account and realise that eileen replyed to my message to VAri and Sunitha...

To Eileen:
Like i am now saying that if you wanna continue hating me more i dont care but if you wish to forget everything and move on...i am willing to...the decision is all urs...not mine...i am willing to forget and continue...be friends like before...but if you wanna go on not wanting to forget what happened before then i dont wish and i wont ever entertain you anymore...up to you...reply to this if you want to...but remember to think it through...think about the positive things that may happen,and also remember the past...how we used to be close...think it through and reply asap...thank you...

thats all...
bye:)

I Lost!

Today after the remedial lessons Me ,Patricia,Carine,Aldric,Kia cher,shahul and Jun Jing went to the canteen...cause yesterday shahul decided to arrange for a meeting between us and eileen,sunitha and vari....at first it was going well when suddenly they started denying everything that happened...

heres my point of view...on saturday 30 may 2009 vari already uploaded a video(name:tug of war finals 2009-or something like that) I went into facebook and i saw sunitha's status saying stuff about 6,7 comes before 8...i got pissed off but i knew that i cant react cause its her status and non of my buisness...after that i logged out of face book....i was still on msn when suddenly carine told me to go see facebook video on the tug of war finals....i was tagged in that video so was carine and patricia and the title was then changed to(in your face-kiss our ass)....so i was already angry so i decieded to comment on the video and thats how the whole commenting thing started...

nobody believed me even though i had carine as a witness...but nvm then eileen asked me why i keep doing this then i said lah that whenever she walk past us she wil always comment something(e.g. hypocrites,loser,no guts or even dogs)...
and she turned around and asked me a question...why do you keep saying everything when your whole class can just shut their mouth???

that was like a slap to my face...i helped my class stand up but no one backed me...then i got a second slap when eileen turned to them and said so what do you all have to say...then all of them just kept quiet...i realise something from the begining not just today i have been standing up for my class and everytime i kena asked the same question...

"why are you saying so many things when non of your class mates have anything to say?"

so from that point onwards i decided that i will never in my life ever ever ever ever ever ever ever!!! again stand up for anyone but myself because now i lost face to people like eileen and non of them responded when asked a question.we even got labled that we are united for the wrong reasons...
as long as i know they are the ones lying and i just wanna tell the person who is informing them, that you are doing a good job and keep it up...you will have to pay for all this one day when you come to face the same situation...

I just dont know lah,i helped them so much then in the end i am in the wrong and i am the one who lost...not them ah me....cause to them(vari and eileen and everyone who 4/8 had problems with) dont care what/how the class feels they only aim the big mouth that ratted off everytime...i REALISED my MISTAKES and I WILL NEVER REPEAT IT AGAIN...

They are still my friends but when comes to problems i wil no more interfear...cause because of this i am making loads of enemy's...nevermind its just good that i realsied now....i have to thank Vari and Sunitha for slapping me(indirectly) hard enough to wake me up...

I Now have to do something i hate to do but i owe Vari, Eileen and Sunitha and APOLOGY for wasting their time and for even starting this whole issue i should have just shut up and minded my own buisness...like you guys said i should have just untagged myself and kept quiet...never mind...any 4/7 or 4/6 people who see this post pls help me pass my Apology to them especially Vari & Sunitha...

I know its impossible to every be friends again but i just hope that it might happen one day...

and to 4/8 people...you guys are still my best friends but i am just too HURT to even think about this anymore and i have realised my mistake....i promise i will never do it again...if i have caused anyone else any problems or you are not pleased with me for whatever reasons,from 4/8 or other classes pls accept my sincere apology...this might all seem like i am trying to grab attention but just to add i am really sincere about this and i mean it...

To Vari:
many a times we had problems and many a times we have tried to voice it out...once before we settled it and we were friends again but due to other reasons again it happened...to you i am apologising because i know this had nothing to do with you and i was just venting my anger from eileen to you cause i thought you were doing the same as her but i have come to realise that you had nothing to do with this...so PEACE...i Apologise and i hope you know everything will be ok between us just like before(IMPOSSIBLE,BUT I HOPE IT MIGHT HAPPEN)...

To Sunitha:
I apologise for even saying your name and you had nothing to do with this...i just wanna know something why is it that suddenly you have stopped talking to me at all...what has happened,but i just wanna remind you something i hope it can all be forgotten and just get back to normal...

Thats it i guess...nothing more to say...Thank you for taking the time to read this...even though this might seem like it dosent even matter to you...hope you have understood what i am trying to say...thanks again...

-Vinod